I keep making room for someone who is not coming back. I can keep the bills paid or I can breathe deeply, but not both on the same day. The house sounds wrong without her footsteps finding me. I am angry at every healthy person talking to me about efficiency. I was not prepared to become the only adult who remembers how the whole family machine worked. I know all the account numbers now and I would trade every one of them for one more boring Tuesday.
For my husband